what to do?
Life just moves on, right?

oh wells.
you really didn't remember at all.

hmt paper is in one more day.
didn't do well for my individual project.
I need a miracle to help me through it.
No more breakdowns.
I'm sick of it already.
Am going to study somemore.
to quote my avid reader-unifren:
"Even though we may have lost the battle, we are going to win the WAR."
hopes tomorrow will be a better day.

happy 40th months

happy 40th monthsery. but you don't remember.

I MISS MY BF NA.

I miss my dearest boyfriend.
but I doubt that he knows.
maybe he knows; but not the extent of it.
I miss him when I am studying for my papers;
thinking if he's also rushing out his urgently-pending assignments.
I miss him when I am having my meals.
thinking if he remembered to eat in the midst of his busy schedule.
I miss him, simply all the time.
BOYFRIEND, I need a hug badly :'(

random tots.

just some random thoughts...

1. Exams are SO near.
yucks. hope it will be over soon.

2. Life sucks at the moment.
but I do try to find some happiness from this dark moment of my life.
thank you to my most beloved boyfriend and my dearest friends for your support :)

3. and ya, I'm turning twenty-one in a month's time.
thanks to those who have asked about how I wana celebrate.
and no, I really don't feel like celebrating it.
I just wana get out of this dark moment.

4. feeling mentally and emotionally tired.
must cheer up soon.
jiayou limjiaxin.

I need a miracle.

I think I need a miracle badly.
a BIG one is needed badly.

I have to make a big decision.
One choice made, would require a great deal of sacrifice.
Or I could choose the easier way out.
and be the self-centered and selfish me.
I wish there was an option C.
perhaps, that option C is a miracle bahs.
Guess, I'll go pray about it.

Lord, if things can't be easier, make me stronger.